Why is it that us females like badboys and and can’t stand good boys? We always look for the badboys and when we find them everything is good till things start going wrong. I’m into good guys that know how to be bad. I’ve found a guy that knows how to treat a female right. I’m not going to lie I’m not used to it. I’ve always been treated bad. Been accused of things i didnt do and now here i am in a situation im not used to. Also i’ve learned that exes will ruin a relationship. Just because they realize what they did they think they can get they’re ex back if the “promise” to change… Been there done that, realized i didnt do anything and that it was time to move on. why can’t others see this, realize it’s called the past for a reason, and move on from it. push it out of the picture and just be happy… or is being happy even possible..

People amaze me that’s all there is to it. Some think they’re better than others, some think they’re not good enough. But when you see these people face to face they don’t admit it cause they’re too good to admit it. When you try to be nice to someone after 4 months of being with them and then you make the decision not to be with them because you’re tired of being alone and then all hell breaks loose. and now when i see you and you expect me to be nice to you now, after what you said to me a few nights before.. you are sorely mistaken. 

small life

My classes will be starting back up soon. 

I’ll have to get up at 3:45 am, to be in class at 5:30 am.

I only have three classes this quarter.

I have a class i have to retake next quarter. 

Being a culinary student is a little me stressful and difficult than people think.

But in the end it will all work out.

Creep

I’ve been working at this place for over a month now. I enjoy working there, most of the time. I’m getting ready to start my third quarter of school, if i can pay for it. But this is nothing on the subject of the night.

I’m in my early twenties and you’re in the mid thirties. You’re a grown man and you’re acting like a little kid because I don’t want to be with you or hang out with you. I said to give me time and you can’t even do that. Just because I don’t reply to you doesn’t give you the privilage to come to my house unannounced. Seriously you are starting to be a creepy.

Please quit being a creep and please start acting your age. Geeze.. I can’t describe how i feel about all this right now..

hate

All I feel about myself is hate

All i feel period is hate. 

I hurt people who care about and love me.

I don’t think i’m pretty

and i know my attitude is horrid. 

I hurt you and you’re accusing me of things not true. 

You made me feel alone

I wanted to be with you but i couldnt stand the feeling

of being alone even when we were together. 

i loved you touching me

i miss you opening the door for me.

I already miss talking to you.. 

i really do love you 

and i didn’t lie about the things you think i did…

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i still find myself smiling, even after everything;

every other touch 

every other kiss

every other late night rendezvous

every other girl you held close to your heart

because i have those memories too

and i will never forget you